I’ve been biting out the inside of my cheeks. I’ve been sitting instead of standing in the shower. I’ve been pretty sad lately. I’ve been ignoring your phone calls, deleting your voicemails without listening to them. I’ve been acting like I was tough shit. I’ve been living inside of seconds, bed sheets, feelings, sunsets, the looks you shoot me in the rearview mirror. I’ve been no one in particular. I think soon enough I’m going to wake up and become the sum of all my misdeeds put together. I will become the shooting pain in your chest, the bad taste in your mouth. You keep rinsing out your mouth but you can’t spit me out.
there are a few people I would like to see right now, actually
16) What I find attractive in girls/boys?
I’m not sure what this question is asking. I’m mostly attracted to guys that know what they want. what I find attractive varies with each person, though. to be honest, if you’re funny, you have everything you’ll ever need in my opinion. but you’re probably looking for physical things, I guess. I’m really into nice teeth and long fingers. I like eyes, the way a boy smells, jawlines, how tall they are and how lovely it is to hug them - amongst other things. I notice everything about people. there’s not little specific things I’m looking for in different people, there’s specific things about different people that I end up really liking
27) Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is?
I’m not in a relationship, but I don’t really care to label things. I like being alone for the most part, mostly because I know I have someone that I can be alone with. I’m not good at relationships. I get bored and begin to feel weird about the idea of belonging to another person. I get tired of sleeping alone, though. I’m constantly aching to hold someone’s hand, to kiss them, I don’t know. I don’t get very affectionate with people, so if I am at all affectionate with you, it’s genuine.